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God Knew

God knew. He must have known… See, the back story is this. I have been a regular poster on a fitness message board for years. Every month, I posted my running/walking mileage, tried to meet my stated goal, commiserated with follow posters who missed their goals, congratulated those who met goals….We were a tight knit group. When Steve our son died just before the cancer fundraising 5k that he and I were organizing, the message Continue reading

Geezerdom (reprise)

On Wednesday we went to an anniversary celebration. I put on a nice Hawaiian print dress, braided my hair and put on some earrings. On my arrival home I looked in the mirror….and saw a silver earring and a bronze one. On Thursday I donned my black polka-dot pants, paired them with a rust colored sweater and what I thought was a black shirt. When I took it off at home after the workday…..I noticed Continue reading

Wound Agape (reprise)

Father David asked if I would read the lesson at Holden Evening Prayer this past Wednesday. I quickly shook my head and said “No!” In mock annoyance he asked “Why not?” and I mumbled something about recovering from bronchitis. That excuse, of course was only that….an excuse. I used to be a good speaker. I was able to effectively deliver a sermon weekly for months when I was interim lay leader following the retirement of Continue reading

He is Risen!

On Sunday night last week, there was just the slightest twinge in my throat. I fluffed it off, attributing it to the multitude of songs I had sung at the Kanikapila the previous day. On Monday morning, just a bit of a sniffle…Monday was beach day and I felt great-until we got home-then I was hit with fever, sore throat, body aches and profound fatigue. Yep, despite having gotten my annual flu shot (47% effective Continue reading

What’s Good about it?

On this Good Friday, shortly after the anniversary of my own son’s death, I am suddenly aware of Mary, Jesus’ mother. We are in a sisterhood that no one chooses: the loss of a child. I know the agonizing, gut-wrenching pain that results from a child’s death. For months I watched as his treatments failed to stem the relentless advance of his cancer. Like Mary, I stood at the foot of his “cross” watching the Continue reading

Pete’s Feet

petesfeet “We have to do something about Pete’s feet!” Don called me at my office early on a Monday morning. Pete, somewhere in his seventies and mute due to multiple strokes, lived on the street, declining most interventions. He had, however, been befriended by Don and his employees, who made sure Pete had warm clothes, and that he got lunch every day. Over the weekend, they had noticed that Pete was obviously having discomfort while walking, Continue reading

Driveway Moments….

drivewaymoment Public Radio has what they call their “driveway” moments….where you sit in your car after arriving at your destination to finish listening to a segment. While driving home from work one day I listened to not only a driveway moment, but a “pull off the highway and stop moment….” It was a story about a man’s funeral, and how it, and the period of time afterward, affected his six daughters. In my former “FB life” Continue reading

Of Big Birds and Bibles

I admit I was not listening closely as the Old Testament lesson from Isaiah was read (I blame the lectern mic settings for being too quiet for me to hear clearly…..) but my head snapped up as I heard “The beasts of the field shall honour me, the jackals and the ostriches: because I give waters in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert, to give drink to my people, my chosen.” Ostriches? In the Continue reading

The Gravelpit

We had a tendency to be…impulsive. Early in our marriage we lived in Phoenix, where the oppressive heat in mid-summer made us want to leave town every time we had a free day or two. David worked long hours as an equipment technician, and so we often found ourselves leaving town late in the evening. On this weekend, he had gotten home later than usual, but it didn’t stop us from throwing the camping gear Continue reading

The Exhausted Majority…..

….R Us. (or, R me, anyway). A study last year discussed how a large percentage of Americans may not fit into the traditional political mold: neither liberal nor conservative, aligned with neither Republican nor Democrat, and that many people find the fractured political landscape leads to fractures in relationships with family, friends and coworkers. For the last few years I have found myself obsessively-sometimes literally for hours daily-scouring news stories, posts, tweets and “reddits” and Continue reading

Taking the plunge..

In my dream I was standing on the shore of a sandy beach, leaning against a piling. I was dressed as for church: a dress, pumps and modest jewelry, my hair neatly combed. A swell of water came in and overtook me, covering me completely. It was not a crashing wave, but an upwelling of the sea. It did not crush me against the piling, nor did it tumble me with furor-rather it came in Continue reading

Blue Christmas

This year our church hosted a “Blue Christmas” service: one designed for people in mourning, or who have suffered loss, or who deal with depression, or who for whatever reason, just don’t feel up to the typical “festiveness” of the season.  A contemplative service, it offered a message of love, compassion and support without the trappings of HAPPYHAPPYHAPPYHOLIDAYS!!!!! Having lost our only child due to cancer recently, I was NOT looking forward to this service. Continue reading